1.
quickly, and thus, tear the last day of October, perception is very light, not branded marks.
deep unease nothing close to heart, in the city under the sway of the body only. Quit the job more than three years of work, the only sense of security has been hollowed, is still their choice, without Guihua, select wandering alone on the unknown to the other.
do not know how the soul is always placed? Quiet people, but their hearts are longing for the distance. Perhaps not too monotonous life, space-dong, in the hope of walking all the way to fullness of his own fatigue. Did not know what they want? Only know that there are too many things are not what I want, does not belong to me, so looking for the most original of their own desire.
I'm counting the days, quit his job on the first day, hurried to pack up, to pack their own clothes, always be a simple life, like not too much plot for three years, a couple of luggage, but do not know where to send? I do not know where to stay next to Tower City? Although to a friend lay hello for me to accept a temporary, but still let me in advance by mail in the past hesitated. Perhaps they simply will not be afraid to go tall city, although that is a strange city, but there are several people who miss the familiar. At this point I want to go to a completely strange city, find yourself a clean mental blank, like three years ago to get used to a stranger. As strange, so brave, do not want to jump into the circle of the familiar, familiar with the times is a shackle. So he chose to temporarily leave the baggage, and perhaps do not want to take a moment for all, will not return to this city knows, maybe this will slow you down a little feel. Explain friend, so I found the city to temporarily stop, then please send me.
leave the next day, hiding in the rental house, homes, in the state Banxingbanshui quietly staring at TV, look at a fictional story, unrelated to those living romantic love. House like this habit has been a long time, rarely the same as before, a man walk in the street, perhaps through fear of walking in the streets have no longer know where to target not only invest in it. Do not like and then invite a couple of friends looking for some simple fun, like a person in a non-lonely day.
in the city, few people can remember where I was alone too much, because the kind of lonely, so I miss, but I also fortunate to have such a presence, so that their very real, that to from the depths of the soul Gujue sense but let memories.
rain outside constitutes a background, the howling of the shake melody, often scattered in the ears.
listen to the rain, do not overrate their own strength, adding a touch of melancholy. Want to leave, maybe make yourself feel better on the road.
last night, rain accompanied the wind out there today, I heard a cool, outside air is cold in the bar,cheap UGG boots, wondering, but could not guess the cold is the extent to which, since being given the choice, I Choose a warm place to stay temporarily, I hope later point of falling to the ground feeling of cold degrees.
rain let me find a pretext for a kind of nostalgia, so that their stay in the city more than a moment, although left and go its own is completely free, but still want to find this freedom in a nostalgic reasons, heart is rocking with contradictions.
not every city can be chic wave passing to say: Goodbye, the latter will have no period! I gently to also gently away.
in the dream place to start, or even remember that first came to this city in the morning rain Xie Fei, the little woman's smile. Blink of an eye is also leaving, three collections in that crevice.
Sometimes there is nothing to love it more like nostalgia, perhaps it did not want to let your heart space. Not sure how long will this put himself, as if suddenly very lack of courage, do not want to enter the outside world, the good news out of this room there are a few people, their voices gently provoke my nerves, missed the kind of dependence. Original afraid to stop, then let him feel the kind can not bear light, I seem to have thus been ignored, forgotten in a certain corner.
moment I do not want to tell the whereabouts of their loved ones, because I do not want them wandering at this time of instability and extra care. Choose to go their own way is always, why not simply put aside those overtones of it. Our life is a chain of this, it is difficult for purely their own true inner voice, we will be out of the people associated with a variety of concerns and practical considerations have disrupted the state of mind, so let yourself have one a period of exile it.
covered in the text of the emptiness inside that only you can see the soul that leaves Luo Ji, who obviously is a quiet but with a restless heart.
Perhaps the eyes of others, life always blows all sad that people still calm, indifferent, quiet smile, but only you know how sad heart. I can only say to myself: quiet people do not necessarily have a calm,Discount UGG boots, quiet person will not necessarily quiet.
2.
November 1, outside the sun feels warm, sprinkled across the windows of the sun at noon, and give me the warm shallow. They brought back a message: out cold.
stagnation of the time, I deliberately confused, no rhythm, no law. Everybody was asleep, I still make their eyes open. We woke up I was sleeping, do not know when they leave the house toward the work, almost quiet in a vain to wake up, wake up can be used to describe when your eyes are fuzzy feeling.
always some loose feeling of sadness, residence in the house and pack up for the basic sectors of care can save, do not worry there is no image, anyway, no one else but ourselves, the pajamas, hair disheveled but also a day . Shuttle in the house, or just the front of the TV or computer, forget the time, so that the time had also passed quickly.
do not know when to eat, hungry to know perception is not completely missing link to see the time has come for three in the afternoon, the digestive system may have no concept of time, maybe she did not have those concept of time, but we are used to supplement their regular food. Long past noon, the original loose rhythm of the day do not have to so easily lose sense of time, perhaps it is not any comparison. Feel hungry, to the kitchen to get one for their side dishes, but also a good pass, the original conflict a little time but can not allow myself to so sudden a little taste of hunger.
see in the Beijing News under the snow, but do not know what the city can not see a fall in the snow? Some miss the purity of silver makeup world. Heard that the world of snow, and some do not believe the city's snow would come so early, but still some heart.
phone down, temporarily lost contact with everything, so today, completely quiet, just listen to the latest sounds.
3.
November 2, Castle in the sky raised snow.
impression still fall, but saw the feeling of winter.
did not expect such an opportunity as much as a fly in here to see the snow, the original did not believe to be confirmed, some gratitude. While it did not bring this world dress up, snow flying time is too short, and end up too light.
fact remains for me to believe, do not know if missing a season, Moran's ask ourselves: is winter yet? When winter comes? Not sure! I seem to have never have the ability to distinguish the season, although a date, but I rarely used as a standard.
one day a year, I do not believe in the coming winter season, I saw the sky snow. Thank God to the next for me as a light snow, although many people know that this will be snow, but I pretended I was the only know.
4.
November 3, have been tempted to walk outside, I thought it could endure much longer, but could not the sink.
a person, stroll a few hours, unconsciously is dark. Does not go far, a few blocks in a familiar figure still trail. The city's air has become cold, compared to the streets three days passed, people have to wear winter clothes, I think really is winter.
winter leaving, I walked the cold streets, bustling, crowded with strangers stringed as a farewell.
I also replaced the thick unlined clothes, his hands are still cold and have some stiffness. Perhaps the exigencies of drifting snow, although short, is not short to the ground a little bit of snow on the Indian trail, but the snow must not have been hidden away in the sky, so thin in the wind breathing, heart trembling will follow .
usually not much time visiting the clothing store, but today a lot of clothing shopping, trade shops, boutiques, stores, clothing store, etc. are a casual Guangdang with. This did not plan shopping, take a trip, had a lot of harvest. Optimistic about the clothes, the price is also very easy to just let themselves, and on the way to buy it. Did not have a good long time for their own more clothes shopping, and on days off work, for shopping, there is always a lack of interest, even if the clothes do not bother to turn, and more is seen after one or two shops in which to select OK, So, I really admire the girls who are able to go shopping.
night dad calls to ask where this time? Said that two days have been calling the state are shut down, that way I have. Simply tell about my situation, and then talked some more topics, Dad put it up carefully all the way and so on.
dream these days, all associated with the family, perhaps their sense of caring it. I count the days left, they count my return date.
previously been eager to travel, the farther away from home as possible. Now, more and want to close the distance with the family, if I am destined to this life of wandering, I will change the direction of drift, my heart has chosen drifting toward the direction of home.
4.
November 4, the sun is shining, sitting on the bus 302, I feel very warm. Y Cangkou go home, because the city we met, the light actually traveled so many years of friendship.
cold temperament we are more people, together, parting will not be much for us, sad, and sadness, we all seem to have a favorite from the habit.
florist to send us to a screen time of the afternoon, florist aunt who works all those pots of flowers is very beautiful, people do not appreciate the praise. Y do some of the screen to see the house for a little flower dress, it more than a warm feeling.
a young woman and a grandmother to aunt How to make silk flowers, and I joined the Y, and let her shop looks a little crowded. The young woman using a rare day of rest,UGG boots clearance, came into the shop busy for a long time ago, and even ate lunch one day is almost obsessed with flowers in the hands of those who, through their own hand made flowers are happy is unspeakable.
from time to time some women spend the small shop to buy screen material, has been the women feel that manual labor has long been abandoned on the hand,UGG boots, but also remember my mother's generation who, at home, there are always some traditional manual, female red from their own hands, a child's sweater almost entirely from the mother's hand, and now will be difficult to see the girls knitting, some sigh. Originally not interested in living on the hand, looked at her flowers is not supported by the want to do a few hands. Bought the materials, the two learn to follow Aunt Lily, and perhaps a few days only to find that such a new thing, watching from their own two hands lily mood was very pleasant.
Y do is brightly colored roses and tulips, to see how beautiful than I do, so the results of her work to occupy a small part of a small part, let her heartache , Qiandingwanzhu makes me not lost her flowers. I even promised her she would be back to Sichuan to do a flower memorial will not be discarded, but like me who do not like small objects, so hard to guarantee.
the lights in the night they returned to Taiwan in the East, get off one stop earlier discovered, walking in the light of the street some chill. Climb the bridge, not far from the moon right on top of tall buildings, looked from the overpass, as long as the station to the top of that building, you can pick to the moon. Their whimsical joke, when you climb tall buildings, that can be close to the moon, the moon, but very far back to the horizon, there is something very far from us forever in the place. Outlined a number of coincidences due to the angle and space, we are just in a unique position, showing a difference between the actual distance, the Morning Star that far away from us at the moment is so near, and some got some. Distance across cognitive, some pleasant mood.
flyover traffic, such as clouds drifting across the road, the flow of rhythm in the world. Shadow on the bridge next month, the night is a blur of desolate souls, spectrum of the rhythm of the night.
Sea Park by the river, lying in the river the color of the water and as black as night, the lights on the banks of the river into the surface, like a shattered mirror scattered patches of Ling, the light turns dark light shine point.
almost a summer night, and friends of the shuttle with a dog in this river, planted a lot of happy smile. This river is a busy summer, but this time the wooden plank Haibohe only spread chaos on the light and dark, cold and messy rows of willow into a shadow.
looked up the sky, moon and fall on the other side of the tower, she seems quietly hovering between tall buildings in the other side of the walk is really on the line with me ah.
L dog brought back a few days ago were sent away, it came to our side when it comes to so little, take the time has grown very large. And I do not remember to look like when the do not know what kind of girl, when she left with a little sadness and melancholy. Italian touch to some cold night, deserted landscape, it is inevitable that some hit me the.
5.
November, because the feet skin infection, a trip to the hospital brought back a large bag of drugs, the concept of the drug never really a big headache, skin infections also did not think a lot of drugs . Medicare card spending money is to be so short, that no disease, but often buy medicine, this is a disease. Seldom deal with hospitals, but each time to feel terror, when the registration queue, see a doctor to exclude, when giving medicine to line up, the original patient is so great ah.
received a phone call a few friends, gossip with the topic, many do not want to say, this is also a day.
6.
getting used to, more and more clear days.
continue to be left alone, the cycle of every day.
boring house in the house, the days are still comfortable in order chaos, waiting for a good foot injury purpose of a day, cold soak in cold water in the syrup, the feet the skin getting better.
7.
November 9, they began to cool, gray fog did not let this day like the morning sun.
bought a ticket to Xi'an, when the pink ticket in your hand, suddenly feeling a kind of motion sickness, myocardial contraction closely uncomfortable. Farewell to the hands, in this city I do not have any pull with, but also do not have much nostalgia, but still some sadness, because sadness and dismay.
courtyard, chrysanthemum bloom, shadows of flowers in the wind howling, cold chrysanthemum is fragrant, this is the last impression to leave the city.
8.
left the company these days, did not go see any of my colleagues, though a colleague said to get together, afraid of the future can no longer meet each other. If so, why pretend that a farewell feast. Very good to leave quietly, throwing open the unnecessary burden. People like me do not like any entertainment, only the heart itself will be free of talent. Who did not go and say goodbye, Fengguowuhen, did not come off as the same weight to all like to leave alone, do not like to bid farewell.
9.
the residence for up to ten days, I do not have to become familiar with the mark of the city, perhaps the fear of uncomfortable.
sea, the city of my favorite one, I will embark on my journey in the last minute to say goodbye.
10.
selected routes, buy a good ticket. Train 1316, the price is very cheap only eighty-six yuan.
feelings about the journey, turn to how to program with my foot on the hearts of an ancient city that it?
I can not expect, but it is expected.
have access to a really tall map of the city, ready to not be too much.
end in this city, will start in another city.
like the simple life, like a simple trip.
11.
September 18, 2010, I returned to the text.
friends because of the intention to ask the city tall: I think a half a minute, the brain not have a clue. So, I look messy archive, only to find out the time.
written records of this city in the last ten days or so tall the state, see the November 9.
early morning of November 13, in Xi'an, but also to record the scene of a few pens.
blink of an eye, I wonder how long? Another year or so, built in the city in the memory away.
friends over there, starting with occasional audio, but now silent with each other, relating to all, I do not know lost lost time or distance? Became a breakpoint, the end is memories.
that year, remember, I said, that city.
at the moment, I do not know the road,
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